Anytime I’m in a new environment, the first question that pops in my head is “What do they think of me?” I question if people think I’m kind, approachable, friendly, pretty and any other positive attribute that I can think of.
When you first see me, you can’t tell how self conscious I am of my physical appearance and personality. I don’t aim to be a crowd pleaser, but I don’t know how to manage when I don’t feel accepted. It’s something I’ve been working on my whole life… I’m a literal work in progress.
I’m working on being unapologetic and not in need of anyone’s approval. I’m working on being my own kind of beautiful, with my own colors, shapes and sizes.
I surround myself with the most beautiful and genuine people who uplift me to be my best self. So why can’t I be just that – my BEST self? It’s easier said than done, but time heals all and makes it worth the while.
I’m constantly reminding myself that I’m here to live my life, and follow my rules. Society comes up with these fake standards as to how I’m supposed to be as a woman; and reality is, I don’t meet these standards – and that’s more than okay. I meet my own standards, because why would I want to be like any other person in this world?
I’ll take the few pounds, and the dark circles under my eyes. I’ll live with the mood swings, ’cause what’s better than living full of emotions? I’ll take the straight hair, that I wish had more volume. I’ll take the 30 extra minutes I need to put on make-up on the weekend. I’ll take this and anything else that I choose to for myself.
Again, this is all easier written down than achieved. But time is my witness, I’m more of myself today than I was yesterday and I can’t wait for the full, unfiltered version of me.
So cheers to being and loving us: yourself and myself, without any exceptions and full of honesty. Forget them, and live for you because that’s who matters the most… Truly.
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